It was nice to visit Katie's grave in Utah and be able to do some work to make it look nicer. I had a hard time seeing my cousin at the family reunion because she is a month older than Katie. She is a beautiful girl and very caring and giving. All I could think about was the fun the two of them would have had together. I had to go into my room and have a good cry one day, but then I felt better.
It is great to be home. I really felt back home again when I went to Sacrament Meeting at church. We had some fabulous talks that really made me reevaluate myself. I noticed that for the last couple of years I have kept people at arms length. I have never been like that before, but I guess I am worried about getting hurt. I feel like I don't have enough emotional/spiritual reserve to give to others. I am going to try to do better, but I am still scared. I guess that's when fasting and prayer comes in.