It was nice to visit Katie's grave in Utah and be able to do some work to make it look nicer. I had a hard time seeing my cousin at the family reunion because she is a month older than Katie. She is a beautiful girl and very caring and giving. All I could think about was the fun the two of them would have had together. I had to go into my room and have a good cry one day, but then I felt better.
It is great to be home. I really felt back home again when I went to Sacrament Meeting at church. We had some fabulous talks that really made me reevaluate myself. I noticed that for the last couple of years I have kept people at arms length. I have never been like that before, but I guess I am worried about getting hurt. I feel like I don't have enough emotional/spiritual reserve to give to others. I am going to try to do better, but I am still scared. I guess that's when fasting and prayer comes in.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts from the family reunion and about what it's like to let yourself get close to others after such a blow. My 2 cents - I feel like I've benefitted hugely from your emotional and spiritual support. Thank you for all you have been giving!
ReplyDeleteokay so I'm sending you a LATE birthday present for katie. I heard you were going to Utah and decided to wait until you got back to send it. Love you, Ashley
ReplyDeleteokay so I'm sending you a LATE birthday present for katie. I heard you were going to Utah and decided to wait until you got back to send it. Love you, Ashley
ReplyDeleteI bet that was hard. It will probably always hit you at times like that, huh? I'm glad you were able to have a good cry - that's healthy! Thank you for sharing this with us. Love you!
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