Six Months

Guess what tomorrow is? It will be six months since I lost my beautiful girl. I am sure I won't have time to write tomorrow, so I thought I would give some of my thoughts tonight. I think I have moved on to another phase in my grieving. I don't think I like it though. For a long time I would see the photos of Katie, or see her clothes or her favorite toys and smile. But now, It just hurts inside -I almost feel angry. I guess I feel cheated. There is nothing I can do, but go about my "normal" life. Then, something someone says or does reminds me of Katie, and the knife in my heart is just twisted once again. I am sure this is nothing new to people going through this kind of grief, but it is new to me. The trials and tests of this life are more bitter and rough than I ever thought they would be. I just pray that after this life the rewards will be more sweet and more soft than we can imagine here.