My Utah Trip

Here is Katie's headstone. If you look close you can see the pansies I planted inside the cement block. There was a hole that went right down into the soil. We will see if they live.


Hi to all:

Sorry it has been so long. I have been crazy (I know, what is new?) Anyway, I also went to Utah for a week--with NO kids!! It was great. I got to spend time with my mom and sisters and I visited Katie's grave. It was the first time I have seen her headstone in person. It was really nice. It was one easy headstone to find. It was so different than all the others around it!

I also finished my online course this week. That one was a killer! I am hoping for an A, but I am pretty sure I will be getting a B *sigh* there goes my 4.0! I will be perfectly happy with a B in that class-it was a hard one.


We went on a couple of hikes. It was perfect weather, unlike back home. We got to visit and laugh and be outside! I think this time of year was perfect for southern Utah! Oh, this is a picture of me in front of some Indian petroglyphs.


Here are the three sisters! (Don't tell anyone we were up here, I don't think we were supposed to leave the trail!)

We spent the day in Las Vegas. We went the Bodies Exhibit. It was really cool, but you can't take any pictures inside, so this is all I've got. I learned some new things and saw some really neat stuff. We all wished we had more medical training to understand more, but it was educational.

Mostly, I tried to decompress and let myself feel what I needed to. I think I would have liked some more time to myself, but I can't complain about spending time with my sisters and mom. It was so great!

So now, I'm back to real life--wish me luck!

Grades

I finally got my final grades for my fall classes.

I got two A's!!! I should print my transcript, cause I don't think I will have a 4.0 after this online class I am taking.

It is hard!

Wondering

I have really been struggling lately and wondering what exactly the Lord expects from us. I truly believe that all he wants is the best we can give, but I know that only God can judge what is our best. I have been feeling like it really doesn't matter what I do, because whatever is going to happen is going to happen, and there is nothing I can do that will change it. I do have faith in the Lord and I believe that he has a plan for me. What can I do that will change God's plan? I can't and I really don't want to, so is there something wrong with just trusting the Lord and living my life? I feel like I have been "trying to hard" throughout my life. I have been trying to be perfect in all the things I do, but I don't think that matters as much as what is in my heart. Does God work on a point system? If I pray and read my scriptures then I am more worthy to get blessing than someone who doesn't do those things? Should I do those things just because I am "supposed" to? I want to have the peace that comes with the love of the Lord, what do I need to do to deserve it? I am not sure I am making any sense, but I would love some input from others. Let me know what you think.